I have steered off my Spiritual Journey slightly and I am back on track. I was watching a show with my partner last night. He likes some times to watch the cop shows. The ones which are real life and I could not cope with the amount of screaming and negativity coming from this program so in the end I asked him to turn it off and I put on some beautiful relaxing music from Youtube. I felt so much better. All these negative programmes are making my head feel so busy. I have felt the past few months have been a real eye opener. First of all with one person I feel as if everything is working in this persons favour when it comes to arraignments, this person will let me down when this person is as we speak doing something the they want to do how ever I have a business to get off the ground and need a week by week plan and need to stick to it. I can not do this when I am let down I have to put this person who is no longer in my life but is a some one who I will not get away from until as I have big connections with him in regards to a child. 
I have also been finding people are very expectant of me do run around after them! I have been feeling very low because I have not had family time in a year. Due to people expecting me to do what I am told. 
Also, others who do not understand have put a lot of stress on to me. Picking faults in silly things. Making me feel as if I have no capability to do these things. 
I have found that these past few months have open my eyes to my business, and what I have to do know in order to get what I need from life. Not what others think I should be doing or what others want as I am very happy to help but I don't think it is fare that I am the one who has to run around after these people. If they want to get some where in life they have to help them selves as I am one person who need to live my life too. 
I am always here to help, how ever I have to do what I have to do. 
I also understand why these people have all of a sudden started putting on me, this is to show the people who want to help, the people who need my help and the people who are just out for them selves. And whilst I leave the ones who are out for themselves I will never judge for they have to do and be in this life themselves. I will continue to help them by sending Reiki and loving energy but I have to leave them to their own devices. 
The ones who need me and the ones who want to help me are the ones I need to concentrate on more. (help me) not for my own purposes but to make the world a better place and to help me help them selves. This is my life purpose. 

Thank You to the Angels and all who have sent me healing and Reiki energy to help me understand this...


Love and light 

Tabatha Hayden (Scott)