Today I went to town with my daughter and finance. It was one of those days I seemed to meet all the negatives. It taught me something today, and that is that when you feel negative then you do attract this. I firstly had one person who was really rude to me for no reason what so ever, she looked me up and down and then called me disgusting. Can't say I was hurt more annoyed I had my little one with me and this was in front of her. It shows what shallow people there is in this life. How ever I can not judge her for the way she acted today that down to her to think about her mean actions. And if she is going to be so nasty towards others then she will only ask the universe for negative things to happen to her. She got her self into a very negative situation as I did say to her '' there was no need for that comment or look'' she looked the fool not me as all the people around me witnessed her rude behaviour. In the super market a women was very mean and she laughed at me when I was explaining to my partner about this other man who was very rude when I was asking my 5 year old if she needed a hand. (with her coat) this man said ''yes'' right in my face and I looked at him. I did not find this comment offensive more rude considering I again was with my daughter. This other women found it very funny. She also came at me with her shopping trolley she could see I was in pain she missed me by the matter of inches and then another women came rushing down the bread isle and nearly knocked me over. No sorry not even a tut. I will not go shopping again in this kind of environment as this caused me today to feel very low. I had a head ache from the pure stress of others. It may have not helped as the mood I was in this morning due to unaffordable bills and now help from other people who should be helping (can not name for legal matters.) Lets just say that this person does not pay what this person should pay. And I doubt they will never. 
How ever this person is to me in the past and will never hurt me like they did again. How ever they want to bury their head in the sand when it comes to a responsibility they can not be responsible for then I will be the one who is fully responsible for this matter and is very grateful as this matter means the world to me. I am grateful for the life I have and the people I have in my life who love me. I am thankful I can breath, walk, talk, see and I am thankful I have a roof over my head and for the life I have. This is my spiritual journey what ever I have to do! and I am loving every minute of it how ever hard it is and has been.
My motto is. Life is what you make it, you make your own luck. You can not expect it to just come to you, you have to go to it!  

I have given my spiritual and holistic therapies on a hold for about 6 months. I have felt blocked and not I need to start again so I am off. Starting study again. And I am starting feel spiritual again. My body all of a sudden as asked me for a detox even if it is half of the days then a smaller but normal meal on the night. I feel as if I need this. So as of tomorrow this is what I am going to do. 

I will update you soon. 


Love and light xx