my-spiritual-journey-blog

2012

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 11:35:12 +0100

A few years ago, I and my soul sister Vicky we did a reading and I can vaguely remember the year 2012 being when we opened our shop. It isn't its our year for finding our feet, ridding of negative people from our lives and learning how to stick up for ourselves, what we want and what we believe.
My mother has been very ill, I haven't been feeling wonderful, and all I have had is JUDGEMENT and people being MEAN!
I ended up walking out of some one's flat because I was spoken to like I was nothing and I deserve better then this. I will never show my face over there again.
I felt so upset, I felt judged at a time I need support, and I had also had a running with this person a few times.
I have deleted people from Facebook who have shared so much JUDGEMENT about me. I am firmly saying NO, to this now.
Since shedding these people I have felt a lot happier, and less stressed. I do have my moments but I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted!
So I am still finding my feet in my life but I am closer to all successes.

Super foods and vitamins.

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 00:23:38 +0100

Over the past 6 months I have been thinking about what I really want and I want to be healthier person, so I am adding super foods and vitamins to my daily diet.
Folic Acid
Evening Primrose
Ginkgo Biloba
Bee pollen
Are the main ones I have started to take this month and months previous. I feel a lot better and my periods seemed to have stopped being so erratic.
Cut milk out of my tea, still eating dairy but I think cutting down a lot will help me to lose weight.

My POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS.

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 00:19:36 +0100

I am love
Love is me
I am loved
I love everyone
I love love and love loves me.
I have a beautiful life
I have beautiful friends and relatives
All is well
All is caring
All is healthy
I am happy
I am healthy
I have enough to live one.
I have a happy and comfortable life.
My abode is safe
I am safe.

Today has been a good day! 23/04/12

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 20:07:15 +0100

Today has been a brilliant day. I have appointed a new Representative for my team, the next one will be for Colin. I am so happy I have had this opportunity.
I am a bit sad, we have literally run out of money this time again and I have had money added to my catalogue account. Late paying as I get no money at the minute for my daughter. She has started after school clubs and I am being a little harder on her when it comes to her and bed time. I have started shutting the door to my living room because she has to learn now that mummy has a life too. I understand when she is ill or wet. But she is five and nearly six in September so, She needs to sleep not be up calling mummy as she is in school.
I feel she had so much potential and she has started to learn to read. I love to listen to her sound out her words. It wonderful. She loves books. And clothes. She is going to be hard work as a teenager she is one on her own.
My little sweetie.
I am also starting to take nature walks, take her out to the park more as we have the car its not as healthy as I used to be we walked all the time.
Our AVON is starting to build so, so happy. Can see me this time next year flourishing in both my businesses. And my writing business. I have always dreamed of these and now I have got my chances.

Had some horrid responses to some comments on Youtube, but ah well, what ever not to bothered any more what others think. And also slowly I am getting rid of the ties with this one person who thinks they can hold me back. They keep on throwing massive obstacles in my way but that fine. It only makes me work harder for what I want.

Made my first dream board, want to make another using crafts as I printed it of the computer. All is looking up still. Even though we still struggle with money it wont be like this next year.

22/04/2012

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 22:44:34 +0100

Today I received a negative message from YouTube from a positive comment I left on a website of a star. I can not believe that I did not care what this person thought and the names they called me because I knew that I was in the right and I was not being nasty.
I have had a lot of light shed on a big and negative situation in my life, which for legal purposes I can not talk about. How ever thanks to my soul sibling Andre, I can now let go of this situation and understand why this is happening. I and my partner have been out doing AVON today our delivery day is a Sunday every three weeks. Tired but worth it. I get to see all my lovely customers. I enjoy doing AVON. Also started my Spiritual Journey Vlog so I am so happy.
My life is looking upwards now. Doors are opening. So happy.
I have also done very well with writing on Squidoo. I have not earned anything yet, well $0.07 but that is fine because I know at least I am eventually going to get paid.

My life is getting better. April 2012

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 12:07:09 +0100

I have my ups and my downs, like everyone. Since I started affirming, and manifesting the things I want such as to become a paid writer, Earn a living from home I have had doors open from every were. I eliminated negative people from my life. Not being nasty towards them as their life path and my life path has now forked off into different directions.
I have started to write on a great thing called Squidoo, I am still doing AVON as a Sales Leader and also now I am in the possess of starting my Holistic business too. A lot going on but it is going to be well worth it.
I have been out to do expired brochures two times this month, I have had a few nights bad sleep but happy because I got myself doing something rather then going back to bed. I went out on foot. Since my partner came up from Bristol UK, with his car I have put on too much weight. We are all walking more now as we also pick my daughter up from school on foot. Hoping to get us all in a better routines and sleeping pattern.
Very pleased with this month so far.

Downs and ups!!

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 22:40:43 +0100

Well, had some very big downs, our car insurance has gone up because a women claimed against us, even though she drove into my partner, she had some work done to her car, and there was no damage done to either car. We have no Idea how we are going to pay it but I am thinking positive as we need our car for delivery's. And my Mobile Holistic Therapies,
the UP is I have a course after Easter, I get to got to business meetings to see if I can get a loan through a charity to help me pay for some things towards our my business. I am so happy about this. We just did not need a women lying about a silly little bang. I know we are being tested for a reason. I am thinking positive, and like my sister said ''you need to think about this money as if you already have it'' so this is what I am doing so I am off too make my self a dream board.
I am going to start the dream board I started about 3 years ago and threw it away because some one said something silly too me and I decided to give it too the dustbin. I have a better man in my life so God was listening.
I will upload some pictures of my dream board soon.

Love and light friends.

Ups and downs. More ups then downs.

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 12:41:10 +0100

Well, Its been a very up and down couple of weeks. Our car broke down and the company we use have broken our car further. So our car has been in and out of the garage. A little annoying as we can no afford this at the minute.
However, Not all down. Me and my partner have had a job interview for courier drivers very exciting but seem like lots of hard work but we don't mind hard work. I also received a call from a special place who help people get into business if your working 16 hours or less or on benefits. I have a meeting with them also. I have also called my local authority and found out it looks as if they are not asking for a licence for my business at the minute so I am very happy no that it looks like a promising start to my business.

Thanks Universe and thank you God. I can start out no.
Been waiting for this for a very long time.

I am insured.

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 22:44:45 +0100

I am overdrawn no because I paid for my Holistic insurance. Wondering when the next ability to buy food will come from but it is tough I need this to become a therapist. All I need to do know is call the local council and ask them if I need to pay anything for a licence. Some areas such as Birmingham ask you to buy a licence to work in that area so I will no have to call Kidderminster council and ask them, also Worcestershire, and Bromsgrove I am not sure as their are many different councils. Scared and excited.

My Purpose

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 15:18:47 +0100

I have steered off my Spiritual Journey slightly and I am back on track. I was watching a show with my partner last night. He likes some times to watch the cop shows. The ones which are real life and I could not cope with the amount of screaming and negativity coming from this program so in the end I asked him to turn it off and I put on some beautiful relaxing music from Youtube. I felt so much better. All these negative programmes are making my head feel so busy. I have felt the past few months have been a real eye opener. First of all with one person I feel as if everything is working in this persons favour when it comes to arraignments, this person will let me down when this person is as we speak doing something the they want to do how ever I have a business to get off the ground and need a week by week plan and need to stick to it. I can not do this when I am let down I have to put this person who is no longer in my life but is a some one who I will not get away from until as I have big connections with him in regards to a child.
I have also been finding people are very expectant of me do run around after them! I have been feeling very low because I have not had family time in a year. Due to people expecting me to do what I am told.
Also, others who do not understand have put a lot of stress on to me. Picking faults in silly things. Making me feel as if I have no capability to do these things.
I have found that these past few months have open my eyes to my business, and what I have to do know in order to get what I need from life. Not what others think I should be doing or what others want as I am very happy to help but I don't think it is fare that I am the one who has to run around after these people. If they want to get some where in life they have to help them selves as I am one person who need to live my life too.
I am always here to help, how ever I have to do what I have to do.
I also understand why these people have all of a sudden started putting on me, this is to show the people who want to help, the people who need my help and the people who are just out for them selves. And whilst I leave the ones who are out for themselves I will never judge for they have to do and be in this life themselves. I will continue to help them by sending Reiki and loving energy but I have to leave them to their own devices.
The ones who need me and the ones who want to help me are the ones I need to concentrate on more. (help me) not for my own purposes but to make the world a better place and to help me help them selves. This is my life purpose.

Thank You to the Angels and all who have sent me healing and Reiki energy to help me understand this...

Love and light

Tabatha Hayden (Scott)